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and that is all..
THANK YOU AND GOOD-NIGHT!!

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C U LATER

Ok let me see.. school has started.. which I might is STUPID!! I hate school.. it's so boring... but.. anyway..I met a new friend yesterday.. and she's really nice.. her name here is :iconJardenLover101: I think she's one of my best friends now.. and yes I know this is a really short journal entry but oh well..


Lov you all

Bibi

Ok I'm sorry but 7 months without seeing your mother is way too long... that's how long it's been since I've seen my mother and it's really getting to me lately... I mean I tell myself.. ok she's made me cry and caused me pain so why should I care.. but the truth is I DO CARE!! and i can't help it.. my mother has made me cry and i don't mean cry because I'm in trouble I just mean cry because she well.. you don't need to know.. I usually go to bed and look the wedding picture of her and my dad.. and start to cry... or I look at my little brothers pics and start to cry... and the really sad thing is I only have one picture of each of them.. not a lot.. or a few.. JUST ONE!! Which is really messed up because without pictures all I can think of are all the bad times.. or all the good times that make me cry and hurt MORE!! I don't know what to do anymore.. sometimes I think I should just drop down dead.. and other times.. I feel so angery that I'll throw things at the wall and pictures of her... I'm a rec.. and yes I have tryed counsling and thearopy.... it does not work.. infact it makes me think more and which causes me to cry and get angery more.. now you may be asking me why the hell I'm telling this to you... and the reason is because one.. I was wondering if anybody has adivce... besides.. call her.. (because I have no phone number) or just don't worry about it!!! I MEAN COME ON IF THAT WAS THE SOLUTION THEN THIS WOULDN"T BE HAPPENING!! anyway.. and I also just wanted a friend to cry on.. and tell how I feel because m family makes it worse.. and I know maybe it's stupid crying when for one thing at least I have mom... and or whatever.. but maybe that's bad thing.. maybe my mom being alive somewhere is worst then if I knew she was in heaven.. or Wherever.. but then again some people might say that it's good that she alive... but for all I know she could be dead.. it's all very confusing and stupid.. so if you think you can help me or let me cry on you then please leave a comment saying so... please DO NOT MAKE ME FEEL WORSE!!!

BIBI

Wuv you all,
Hieilover324

I didn't have to lie!! maybe I should explain... ok see my bf.. Matt asked me on a date... and sicne I'm kind of young... my parents say NO DATES!! but I didn't want to tell him no I called my friend heather... and asked her about it and she was all BINGO!!! I have an idea... her idea was for her to go with us.. that way it's not a date just a group of friends seeing a movie... at first I though I would just say I'm going with heather and that's it... but instead I found the courage to asked my dad if I could go with Heather, matt, and dad.. so yeah no lying!!!

Okies that's it! me knows.. I'm awesome!